So, I'm back at uni, after being snowed in for the better part of almost 2 weeks. Am back, with exams and assessments and all sorts going on. Am also back to face the music (or lackthereof) with QB. It would be nice to just rub along ok, without any stupidity (which is mostly on her part, to be completely honest, even if I say so myself) and childishness (which is all her, but hey ho). Have begun making an effort with more of my coursemates - we're having a movie night tonight, which will be nice, as long as we watch a good film, not some crap. Have missed S a little bit, she's due back from work in about half an hour, so it'll be nice to catch up with her a little bit before movie night.

Have an exam on tuesday, a piece of just-now-completed coursework due in tomorrow, and another piece not due til feb, which I have done on paper, but can't complete until I get Sibelius on my computer, which will hopefully be happening tomorrow. Have also printed out a few spare coursework submission forms, cause I'm cool like that (I want to do well! I WILL do well...hopefully). So yeah. Am also hunting down houses for next year. I have 2 people to share with so far, so that'll be good. Will get cracking with that on tuesday afternoon, in between practicing alone, practicing for someone else's assessment, dancing and generally being relaxed now that my first semester and uni is well and truly over and done with :) I can't believe that I'm halfway through my first year already, how time has flown. It's weird, cause I don't feel as though I've been here long enough to have learnt half a year's worth of stuff....but apparently I have. Well, the proof will be in the exams and coursework feedback. I hope to get my first ever UG essay back tomorrow, it's in the filing cabinet apparently, I just have to get it back...eek!

Anyway, am currently listening to Radiohead: Exit music (for a film). Although that's literaly just finished, and am now listening to Grace by Jeff Buckley.

Quote of the week: "Only monarchs, presidents, editors, and people with tapeworms have the right to use the editorial 'we'". - Mark Twain. Genius :)

Am currently watching 'Ready Steady Cook', while reading yesterday's Guardian. I know, how middle class. To be honest, I don't really have much to say today, I'm mostly writing out of boredom - not being able to leave the house due to snow is pretty cabin-fever-inducing. Am even debating going downstairs and cooking. I KNOW! If I don't have to, I won't cook, and therefore won't eat. Although the advantage of staying at home is that you have someone to do that for you - Mum. :)

Anywhoo, back to uni next weekend for les examens. But, I have 1 exam on the tuesday, the rest of the week off and then the next 2 weeks off cause the 2nd semester doesn't begin until 8th Feb. I'm paying money to have more time off? disgraceful! Anyway, it shouldn't be too bad, means I can come back home to normal life, as opposed to student life, which I really don't think I'm well made for. I don't do dirty (and by dirty, I mean mouldy, full of washing up, people not wiping the surface after they've chopped meat on it...the list goes on) kitchens and bathrooms, I don't really do frequent binge drinking (the occasional bit's alright, every few weeks I'm happy to go out) and I'd much rather go to a nice quiet pub/bar and have 2 glasses of wine, or go to see a band/live music than go clubbing. That doesn't sound like your typical 19 year old student, eh? I'm just old before my years. I just don't belong in student - ick - land.

Anyway, aside from ready steady cook (it's nearly finished) I'm just about to listen to In Rainbows. I don't often enough sit down and just listen to albums in their listening order, which means I never get to know an album well enough. Damn you itunes! So yeah, that's my mission for today!

Sale purchases

Went on an actual spree today, it was immense. Bought 3 skirts, a dress, a bag, a hat, 3 tops and a jumper. All for something like £80?? bargain! Will (try to) post new pics soon. Also, am really looking forward to warmer weather so I can wear my new trench coat - it's way too cold at the moment.

Tomorrow am going to practice the piano allll day, so that I don't feel completely behind, as I have my first piano lesson of the year on tuesday. Will try and practice as much as I can mentally handle on tuesday too. I've let my music slip recently, and I have gotten that guilty "you're letting yourself down" feeling. Woops. But nevermind, I'm going to be attempting to make up for it now.

I've been reading loads of people's blogs, and I don't really feel as though I am a 'divergent student' as much as a boring student procrastinating my work, writing a diary of my daily emotional/material/musings on t'internet. Ah well, can't win 'em all.

Am just about to go and watch 'No country for old men' with my dad now, so there's no currently listening. fab stuff.

New Year's Resolutions

Cause it wouldn't be new year without them. These aren't really interesting at all, but it feels better to write them down.

Practice the piano more. (I don't do enough at the moment)

Smile and laugh more (read: find funnier friends/spend more time with funny friends)

Dance more freely

Eat less (alas, this one again)

Enjoy studying more, and study what I enjoy more

Spend more time with people that I love who won't be around forever

Find nice young man to have fun with

Wear nicer clothes, buy from charity shops more.

This is all I have so far, it might be subject to additions, I don't know.

Am currently listening to: Fleetwood Mac 'Rumours'. Definitely one of my top 20 albums :)

Happy New Year!

Tidings of comfort and joy

So, it's Christmas eve, and I'm home, finally. I actually arrived home a week ago, but haven't had chance to sit and collect my thoughts. I'm seriously debating looking at going to a different uni next year, transferring and finishing somewhere that the course actually fits what I want out of a degree. I do, to an extent, feel as though the course has been mis-sold to me, and that what's expected of me in a performance context should not be expected of someone who's (in theory) straight out of college - I feel that a conservatoire would've been easier and less pressured in fact (from what I understand, anyway, obviously I've not been there and only have my friend's accounts to go on). So that's going to be looked into in the new year, with the help of my tutor at uni, and maybe some help from others as well (maybe Rhodes still yet has a part to play in my education, who knows). In any case, I have plenty of work to be getting on with over xmas; even though I'm not planning on staying at uni, if I enter another uni at the 2nd year (which is what I plan on doing) then I'll still definitely need good grades (a 2:1 would be good!) to give me a good average into my 2nd year elsewhere. So I'll be practicing and working hard after xmas.

Today, I'm going for a meal with some friends from home (college, more specifically). For a cheap xmas meal at the beefeater. They're coming round to pick me up at 10 to 3, so I still have a little while to kill, I may well do some practice!! (or not, depending on how I feel haha).

Anyway, I don't have any readers to wish a Happy Christmas, but I'll wish everyone out there a happy time anyway. Hope your Christmases are as jolly and whatnot as I hope mine will be.

I forgot to add, I'm currently listening to: Peter, Paul and Mary - Early Morning Rain

So, what a fucking disaster the last few days have been. I can't be arsed to go into details, cause I've relived the moments over and over again in my head, but suffice it to say that I am no longer on speaking terms with QB. Not that I really give a flying fuck, mind, but I had hoped that we'd stay on friendly terms until the summer when I never have to see her big-nosed face again...

alas, that was not to be.

So, worse things have happened at sea, but it's knocked my confidence rather a lot, it must be said. I am taking consolation in the fact that I have a number of wonderful friends who accept me for who I am (opinions and all) and enjoy my geeky stories, and who like my sarcasm. I don't really see it as being such a problem, and y'know what?? Someone who doesn't accept me for me is not worth my time anyway. I've only known the girl for 9 weeks, and she's already judging my family and myself. Now, I'm not usually a big family-orientated person, but I won't stand for someone else badmouthing my little brother; he's an absolute darling. This is just an example of why she's angry with me. Well, QB, I've got something to tell you: fuck right off, I dont' want your little princess life interfering with mine anyway. cunt.

So, am looking into solo living next year, as a-student-living-in-a-house-with-a-family type thing. Seems a pretty good deal, and I won't have to put up with any shit from some jumped up 18 year old, either. And it's mega cheaper - score!!

In other news, my family came up to visit me this eve, which was a nice break, although I much prefer going to see them, cause it means getting away from the hell hole that is currently my house. (I like being able to eat scrambled eggs with peanut butter on toast whenever I choose, thankyouverymuch). After the concert on saturday, am going straight away on sunday morn. Just to get away. I NEED to get away. Even though QB's not here this weekend, I don't give a damn, it's just a nice excuse to go somewhere else, somewhere a bit different. :)

Am currently listening to: Vladimir Ashkenazy playing Chopin's "Raindrop" Prelude. Gorgeous sleepy-time music. As is most Chopin played by either Ashkenazy or Barenboim. Both are ah-may-zing.

So, I haven't slept in a few days, maybe I'll get straight to sleep tonight. Wish me luck!

Went to my dance class as usual on tuesday (told the housemates I was having a date, to get them off my back...it kind of was one anyway) and I flirted my little socks off with a boy who's caught my eye for a while. Unfortunately, there's a newbie to the class who's also taken a shine to him (and every other man in the room, but nevertheless, she's still shown an interest in the one I'm interested in). Well, what was a girl to do? I wanted to put her down and make fun of her all night, and when a man brought up how 'intense' or 'bubbly' she was, I agreed, but was always ladylike in my manner (when really I just would like to think that she's a bit of a slag, but she's foreign, so maybe they do things differently from where she's from, who knows?). Instead, I danced the night away with lots of nice men, and P (the boy), and we danced vertical-sex-esque for all of the dances we danced. He took my number. Great, however....what happens now? He hasn't called/texted. So I emailed him asking if he'd like to go for coffee next week. Presumptous? Maybe, but friends go for coffee too. But I do think he's interested, there are quite obvious signs there, even for a shy boy. Now, if only I could improve my ballroom skills, without paying £35 p/h for the privilege!!

A, currently listening to: the club that's a 5 minute walk from my house but whose noise still manages to permeate my walls of an evening. AND the chinese people upstairs fighting/talking loudly/shouting/doing weird things I have no desire to think about at nearly 1am when I have a 9am lecture. Needless to say I can't sleep.